Sunday, December 15, 2013

Hope

Present Day:

She saw her own reflection in the water and tears fell on the surface of water disturbing the reflection.

2 Years Ago:

She was crying, sitting on a bench at the park. She was talking to someone as if anyone was sitting next to her ( But there sat no one beside her, SHE WAS ALONE ) She kept crying and talking... and there was a guy who kept looking at her to what she did and what she said. The guy was puzzled to what he saw. The girl kept on talking and also replied to some unheard questions. Later on the girl ran and went out of the park in no time, still crying loudly. The guy sat there thinking about her and left after a while.

Next day he saw the same girl... doing same thing again... she cried and started talking to nobody. Today he couldn't resist & got up to ask the girl whats wrong with her. He thought for couple of minutes & went to the girl. He stood next to her gathered some courage and asked "Are you alright?"
She turned around to see him... Her eyes red and swollen. He stepped back a bit watching her.
"Can't you see? I am crying...!!! Doesn't that mean I am not fine???" The guy was taken aback... He thought for a second about his idiotic question and tried again.
"Is there... Something... I can do? I mea..."
"What do you mean??? "The girl shouted.
"I mean... Do you... wanna talk about something... about your problem... or something like that..." He asked  with pauses & with all the courage he had.
"Can't you see I am with my boyfriend???"
This time guy stepped back again but double the step... He was confused, stunned, a bit afraid and completely numb. The girl left the same way she left yesterday.

The guy came a bit early the next day to watch the girl. He came with many questions... Why was the girl crying? Whom is she talking to? Is she a psycho? Has she lost her boyfriend and she's gone crazy? The last question made some sense to him. The girl came and sat on the same bench as usual but for a change she didn't cry and she was beautifully dressed. She wore a red gown that suited her perfectly. The guy got carried away by her charms and beauty for a couple minutes. Returning back from the trance he started walking towards the girl and was thinking of getting something out of her mind today.

"Hey hi!"
"Hi... Do i know you?"
"Well... we met yester..."
"Oh yeah yeah..." She interrupted. She continued.. "So how are you?" she asked.
The guy had a smile... thinking she is the one who was crying and talking to someone that didn't exist and she's asking me how am I?
"I am doing good.. how are you?
"Oh! Am fine..."
"You look beautiful in this dress!"
"Thanks... Actually its our 2nd anniversary today.. my boyfriend is on his way" She was blushing.
The guy was sweating again... He understood the girl was talking about the same invisible boyfriend.
"Hey look there he is!"
He was scared again
"Hey baby... Happy anniversary... She stood and hugged someone, (No one) to herself.
The guy kept staring with his eyes big and jaw dropping with every second. He had no clue what was going on.

She sat, the guy was still in a shock and the girl was talking happily to her invisible  boyfriend.
"Hey love! Meet..." She stopped and asked the boy.. "Whats your name? "
"Haan! Rrrr.. Rahul" He stammered.
"Hey even his name is Rahul... So Rahul.. meet my new friend Rahul..."
"Heeyyy Hiiii Rrrraahul..."
As soon as he said so... The girl started crying...
The guy was shocked! What happened to the girl suddenly...
"You too are the same like others... You know there's no one sitting beside me still you talking to me... Why can't anyone tell me... shout at me and tell me there's no one... I lost my boyfriend but i can still feel him around.. but no one is willing to make me understand that he's no more.. he's not around... I know he is not with me but still can feel him... His touch his voice... His smell... I just cant accept he is not around me... "
The guy was stoned he could feel the pain of the girl... the way she was expressing... her tears... He slowly put his arm on her shoulder and the girl hugged him instantly and cried like a baby... He consoled her... wiped her tears and stopped her from crying again...
He dropped her home and on their home they didn't utter a word. But there were some unsaid things they both understood. Like they would meet again tomorrow at same place.

Next Day ( A New Journey ) :

They both met at the park and then planned to go out for a coffee where they can share some important parts of their life.

"We met with an accident... I survived but he couldn't... His brain was damaged and he couldn't..." She couldn't complete the rest.
"We had a wonderful relationship... We never fought... We just loved... We cried for each other when we couldn't meet... We just couldn't stay apart but today... here... here i am... alone..." She cried again.
"Shhh!!! Dont cry... someday he had to leave... you have to leave... Kabhi toh door hona hi tha..." He tried a bit.

"Yahh! I know... but why on the day we first met... Yesterday was our 2nd anniversary... and I lost him last year on the same day... for the past one year i have been living with his memories... with his thoughts... with his feel... am living with his memories that still makes me smile... The way he talks... the way he makes me laugh... The way he use to call my name... The smile we use to share... I still live with it... I still live with him... He's still with me... and will always be..."

The guy couldn't believe that true love still survived... He thought about the guy who was so lucky to have her but maybe someone controlling us sitting upstairs didn't want them to be together...

"Can we meet everyday...?"She asked
"Yah we can" He said without even thinking for a second.
"You dont have any work? I mean what do you do?
"Well! My father is a rich man.. He wants me to join him but usse pehle he wants me to enjoy my life.. so he's not allowing me to work.
"Ok so will meet here... everyday... same time..."
"But why me? I mean why you sharing all this with me? Why you wanna meet me? "
"Because you were the first guy who cared about the crying girl and you never wanted anything from me... You know what i mean.."
"Ohhh Ok.. I get it.. You need not worry about that... you are in safe hands..." He said and smiled.
"Yeah I know" She smiled for  the first time.
"Oh my god!.. Look at your smile... its awesome... Keep doing that fella... You look gorgeous... " He said it loudly.
"Hahaha thanks... Feels good to hear some compliment after ages..." She laughed and smiled.
"Anytime jee"

They both left and met everyday...

Slowly as they kept meeting.. the girl was feeling better... she was smiling again... she felt as if she got a new life... They would still talk about him but it didn't affect her much now... She would tell about their memories... about their time they spent... She started sharing everything about her life... She was happy.
The guy only heard to what she said... He never complained anything... he was loving it... He could sit and listen to her for hours and hours...

They started going out... they went out for lunch... dinners... for weekends... they started spending most of their time together... they kept going to each others places... met their families... the girl's parent's were more then happy that their daughter was out of that incident...

But they both never came close... they both never even gave a thought of coming close... they just loved each others company... their talks.. their past.. their memories...

2 Years Later (Present Day) : 

"What happened? You look a bit upset today? " She asked him.
They were sitting at the same coffee shop.
"No I... I am not feeling good... My head's paining... It about to burst..."
"Lets go home... You need rest dear..."
"Yah... Lets go... But to your place... I like being there... Feels homely... At my place at times i feel like a stranger..."
"Yah lets go"
They left from the coffee shop.

On their way home...

She put her arm around him and let him sleep on her shoulder...

"I Love You.." She murmured.
"Did you say something?"
"No nothing... I didn't..."
The girl was back in her past... She could remember the same thing happening with her with her boyfriend... She had tears but wiped them before he could see.

They reached home she made him some tea and he went to sleep... She was lying on the couch... and suddenly the guy came running... pulled her hand and took her out...
The girl was shocked and had no clue what was happening...
"What happened? Where are we going?" She said loudly..
"Just follow me..." He said even more loudly.

He took her to the lake... the girl was shocked... and she already started crying...

She saw her own reflection in the water and tears fell on the surface of water disturbing the reflection.

"I Love You Sunaina" The guy said...
Girl cried and cried... She understood everything...
"I... I love you too babu..." She said and hugged him tightly.

"You proved it again that you love me more than anyone in this world... My baby loves me sabse zyada... mujhse bhi zyada..." He too cried. "I remember everything babu... sabkuch... from day one... when I proposed you here... 4 years ago... The day when i saw you at the park... The guy you were talking to was right there... in front of you... I Love You Baby... I Love You... You were talking to your love... to your life... to your heart... to your heartbeat... to your babu... to me... I also remember the accident... I was hurt... my brain got damaged and I forgot you... I forgot my love..." He cried loudly... They both hugged.. they kissed... they were in love.

"I love you baby... I love you... am soo happy to have you back jaan... am soo happy... I love you.. I love you.. I love you. I love you..." She hugged him again kissed him...

"Am lucky to have you love... Am soo lucky... You waited for me.. you didn't give up... You loved me.. you brought me back... I am with my babu again... with my love... I love you.. I love you..."

The girl's boyfriend was no one else but the same guy... He lost his memory in the accident and all he forgot was his love... But the girl didn't give up... She stood there... She hanged in there till the end.. She loved him till the end.. Everything she did was to bring back her love... She believed in her love.. in their love.. She had this HOPE to get him back.. just a hope... doctors didn't give any assurance but her love proved it.. she did it.. they were together... For the last two years she was with her love but couldn't say those three words.. when they lived together all they did was loved each other.. they said I love you to each other 100's and 1000's times a day.. still they were not content... Its said "Love is sweet when its new... But its better when its true.."  It had been difficult for her to stay in front of her love everyday and still act like a stranger... She would cry for hours and hours after going home.. and would pray to bring back his memory soon... She loved him like mad... He loved her like crazy... They both then lived together... forever...

"All you need to do is just hangin there... "

@TheMantalBwoy








Friday, October 4, 2013

Another Beautiful Promise

It was Last day of my school everyone was promising to stay in touch, planning for an outing and some were busy with their plates filled with excess of food almost having a hungry child's meal. I was standing alone far from everyone and staring her. Thinking what would I do after school... Not in case of studies but how will I be able to see her ( The Only Girl I Liked or Loved )

There was this girl in my class Suhani. The topper of the class and the school. A big time geek ( well others felt so ) Simple girl with no habits of a girl except Studying. I never saw her gossiping or yapping around. She never remained absent and that was the only reason I never bunked or missed any classes or days of my school. She was hopelessly gorgeous. Cute Greek nose, fair, beautifully curved pink lips and even better when she smiles my god she made me crazy then. School for me was just looking at her... The way she writes, the way she talks ( though negligible  ) Her smile... Her hair when she use to tie a pony and those flicks kissing her cheeks and in every minute or two she use to put them behind ears... I wished to be those flicks too at times.

So I was standing - staring - imagining - and to my surprise I saw her walking towards me. My mouth open jaw dropping down slowly. As she came closer my heartbeats started increasing it would have left any F1 car way behind, that fast. She was wearing pink saree with no make up, just a hint of pink lipstick and Kohl which she wore everyday. Her eyes were big like a new born baby's eye and shining bright as if in immense happiness. In no time she was standing in front of me and I was staring hard at her straight into her eyes. She clicked her fingers in front of my face and brought me back to the real world.

"Hi am Suhani..."
"Hi.. Sorry I was Just..."
"What kind of a name is this? " She chuckled and asked.
"Am Harsh... And by the way I know you... Actually everyone does..." I was nervous my hands sweating like hell... Heart pumped so fast I thought even she would hear it.
"So what even I know you..." She smiled and said.
"You do? How" I inquired in a shock.
"Well how can I not know my fan... My biggest fan..." She said and started laughing. She looked even more beautiful. Her hair left open and those flicks again playing their part.
"Haha I fan? I didn't get you!" Another question. At times I talk less and question more.
"I know you stare me THE WHOLE DAY" She emphasized on those last 3 words.
"No I just..."
"Shhh don't deny I have seen you staring me" she paused and continued slowly " I like that".
I had nothing to say... I just looked at her with my idiotic blank face.
"You are the only guy in the ENTIRE school who looks at me with a feeling of friendship with a feeling of LOVE... Rest everyone thinks all I want is marks and they think I have attitude and so no one talks to me" Her face dropped with sadness.
"Hey don't be sad... and there for you" I had no clue why in the world I said this... I was regretting it.
But... on the very next second i didn't. She came close to me like very close and kissed my right cheek and said "Thank you so much...  And you know what... I kinda like you... You are honest and simple." She said with a smile a beautiful smile.
By now I had come to know whenever she became nervous she use to bite her lower lip slowly...
"Don't bite them they are beautiful..." I replied with a smile FOR THE FIRST TIME. I was on cloud nine...
She looked at me her smile grew from broad broader to BROADEST.
"So..."
"So..."
"So Do you Too...?"
"I too what?"
"Will you always be so nervous, are you really that dumb or you act like one?" She giggled.
"Hmm actually..."
"Just say it idiot..." She came near me held my hand filling the spaces between fingers.
"I LOVE YOU... A LOT... I JUST DO... YOU MAKE ME GO CRAZY..." I said as fast as I can. She started laughing and slapped me slowly playfully and said "I LOVE YOU TOO..." she came close to my ear and whispered "MORE THAN YOU"
"Promise me one thing... You'll never let 'US' fall apart" She said
"Never Ever... Even after our last breath" I replied
She smiled holding my hand, we left from school had dinner and coffee at a small 'Tapri' where I use to go, as she too loved coffee.

I never understood what happened that night... From where did she come... Why did she loved me... What did I do that she loved me... Many questions came in my mind that night... I was smiling like an idiot after dropping her at her place.

We both completed are college.. Same college same class same bench... We both were hot favorite of our college... Always stayed together... Never fought... and always helped people in love... She loved to do that.. and so did I of course.

Unfortunately we couldn't get job in the same company... She took up teaching and I selected Web Designing... We never use to chat on mobile phones... We both preferred meeting... Or phone calls... Our phone calls lasted maximum for 5 min... We use to write letters... We both loved 'Purana Zamane Wala Love' We exchanged letters if any when we met so that we could have all the memories safe. She was a good writer actually a superb writer. Her letters showed love and my letters had nothing special... I still use to follow letter formats taught in school and she use to get mad at me and I use to laugh like a devil... at the end she use to hug me kiss my cheeks and only then she left.

The best part was it wasn't a routine every hug was with love... Every kiss was with a hope of seeing you again and a concern to stay fine and taking care.

One day I thought of playing a prank with her and wrote a letter saying this is our last meeting and we wont ever meet again... Please forget me... and blah blah blah...

I handed her the letter trying hard not laugh... She read and started laughing... "You think I'll believe this...? Love you..." and she hugged me... I took the prank ahead... I did not reciprocate. She then felt something was really wrong... Please don't tell me all this is true... I would die without you baby... Tell me whats wrong... What mistake have I made... and she burst into tears... the first thing that came to my mind was NOW AM A DEAD MAN... HOW CAN I MAKE HER CRY...?

"Hey am so sorry... Mai mazak ka raha tha... Shhhh... please dont cry please... am so sorry... Was kidding but am so sorry... Sorry to make you cry... Am ready for any punishment you like..." I was holding her face... wiping her tears and I too started weeping... like a child...

"I hate you... You made me cry..." She cried and hugged me tightly... This time I did reciprocate with all my love. "Don't ever leave me... You are my life... If you Die I die..." She said hugging me and crying like a baby and talking in a Baby's Tone.

"Am so sorry... Please forgive me... You are my life too... Even if you die I die..."
She stopped hugging and was now holding my face and said "NO... If I die you Live... I'll wait for you upstairs... I don't want our love to die because of me" and kissed me.

We went home and it was 8 in the night, I was having my dinner and my phone rang.. It was Suhani! I disconnected as she knew disconnecting meant either busy or Having Dinner. Phone rang again and the screen flashed her name again... This time I answered as I thought it would be urgent. "Having dinner jee! You had?" On the other side a male voice replied "Hello! Harsh... Yahan ek accident hua hai... Jiska accident hua hai uske phone se baat kar raha hun... Aap jaldi citizen hospital mai aa jao..."

I was stoned by the news. I left my food on the table and ran out of my house without informing anybody at my place... I reached to the hospital and asked for Suhani's room... I was sweating, tears filled upto the corners of the eyes... as soon as I saw Suhani I broke into tears... I ran straight to her... Her face was full of blood... her hands and legs hurt badly... I was weeping hard... I did not ask anyone anything... I cried cried and cried my Suhani was hurt... She was in pain... She was bleeding... Doctor then took hold of me... and took me out of the room... "Look she's in a critical state... Her head banged hard to the cars windshield and... " Doctor stopped... "And what doctor... What happened to my Suhani" I was crying and shouting at the same time... "and the car ran on the left part of her body.. Damaging her entire left part. She is very critical and there are no chances no hopes."

"I fell down on my knees..." My mind was blank... no thoughts just Suhani all over my mind... By then Suhani's parents too reached at the hospital.

Her dad made me stand... "She'll be fine... Kuch nai hoga usse beta..."
I looked at him and hugged him and cried, wept like anything...

All I had was Suhani and our memories... Our future plans she had made... Everything she said came like a flashback... I did not wanted to lose her... I did not wanted to stay without her... I thought it is a punishment for evening prank that I played... I cursed myself... I went to her room and sat next to her... Scratches all over her face... Her hands... Her Shoulders... I was weeping again... "I am sorry Suhani... Please forgive me.. Please... Get up... We need to do lot of things yet... Please don't leave..." I cried my heart out.

I slept lying on her bed and in the morning at 7 she made some movements... "Harsh" She said in a very slow voice... I could feel her pain from her voice... I stood up, looked at her... I called the doctor. He examined her and I was told to wait outside. "Harsh she needs to talk to you... Please don't put stress on her..."

I ran inside saw her eyes open a bit... " Suhani..." and I were in tears again... "Don't cry..." She was talking in a very low voice. "Shh... don't..." I kissed her forehead... She smiled... and said "I'll wait for you upstairs"

"No Suhani you are not going anywhere... We have to live togther..."

"I lived my life...A beautiful life... Thank you for that..." ... "No babu... please dont say this... I cant live without you..." I cried. "NO... If I die you Live" and she smiled again... FOR THE LAST TIME.

I was all alone... Except her memories... her smile...
I still go to our meeting place and read her letters... Our memories.

Suhani left me.
My love My Life My Soul Left Me.

I kept her promise... I lived... And did not let us fell apart EVEN AFTER OUR LAST BREATH.
I just lived... I am just living because I am breathing...

Writing this for her... For my Love... For Suhani... She loved to read... I'll still write for her...

Love You Suhani. Till my last breath... and even after that... Fulfilling 'Another Beautiful Promise' of yours. Not letting our love fall apart because of you.



@TheMantalBwoy






Monday, July 8, 2013

Those Unspoken Words

"Hi"
"Hello... Kya haal hai? " I asked
"Sab Thik... Tu Bata"
"Fine! A usual" I answered with a fake smile.

It was 3 in the afternoon on a busy Wednesday. We were meeting for the very last time. 'We' states 'Me and 'Her' (the girl I loved and I still do )
My story is quite usual. Boy loves a girl, girl does not reciprocate his feelings and then the girl is married to someone else, THE END. But like every other story even I wanted to meet her for the last time(last time hurts a lot trust me) And we met. But 'Jab We Met' what happened was something very unusual, that doesn't happen in real life it only happens in reel  life.
She belongs to a family where parents are still living in an era where 'Love' is a crime forget about adding 'Marriage' as a suffix.

"So... What is it? Tumhe kuch kehna tha!" She asked.
"Yuss! But KUCH nahi, BAHUT KUCH kehna hai..."
"Hmm hmm go ahead! Main sunn rahi hun..."
"Umm... Well you need to read actually..." I said and handed over a letter to her(ofcourse I wrote it)

I was (am) quiet good at writing (well she says so). And 'Somethings Are Well Said When Written'. I gave it to her and she had this Smile on her face for which I could do anything(ANYTHING).
She started reading and with every line her smile grew broader and broader and eventually she had one beautiful ear to ear smile. Her lips were at their best and working wonders on me (obviously) as that's all I could see now, her SMILE.


Suhani,

            If you remember you had asked me once... 'What if you tell me a yes? What if you too love me?' That day I couldn't answer you... But today I will... I... I would first hold you in my arms. I would embrace you, admire you and love you. Yes! I would... If i could... Its been almost eight years I have been waiting and today when its the END I want you to see through my heart. I still have no answer to 'Why I love you?' I just do and always will... As its said 'You'll Find True Love Hiding Behind Patience'
            Every time I see you my heart starts pounding as if its my last breath. This is what you do to me... You make me crazy... And I love that feeling... This letter, this last meet, this moment, all this won't stay anymore and you too. I won't be able to see you again... I won't be able to make you smile... I know its the end but.... I'll always love you. I won't let my Love end like this relation between us. You'll stay with me in my mind, my heart, you'll always be close to me no matter what... I write for you and will always write just for you. 
           There are many memories of yours thank you for that as am going to spend the rest of my life remembering them and this moment its really bad... I don't want you to go, this is the last memory of yours to me. The smile you'll have while reading this. Please don't cry I know you will do that too but I don't want that to happen, Never Ever. 
           The first time I saw you, I had no clue what was that... I kept staring you the entire day. Maybe that was the first day where I was Love Struck. With no reason no hopes and no expectation. I'll Miss You! I'll miss everything about you. Our calls, chats, my letters to you... This is the last letter I am writing I swear... No one else deserves this other than you. 
           I wish I could hold the time... I wish this day this moment never ends... I... I Just  I Love You Yaar... Please don't leave me! 
           Mai tujhe bahut buri tarah miss karne wala hun... Woh Mandir mai milna... Tere college aana aur tujhe padhaane ke bahane tujhe ghanto tak taakna... Teri woh hasi, tera woh muskurana... Mai bahut miss karunga... Ab mai kisse baatein karunga.... Kise apne bure bure joke sunaunga... Please mat jaa...! 
            Maine aaj tak tujhse kuch nahi manga, jaate jaate bus ek chiz deti jaana teri woh hasi mere naam kar jaana... Aur nahi likh paunga... Kehna toh abhi bahut kuch hai par kuch aur kaha toh tut jaunga... 
            Bus ek waada kar mujhe bhul na jaana... Mai hamesha tera intezaar karunga... Chahe jo ho jaaye yaad rakhna koi hai jo hamesha tere saath rahega...
            Apna Dhyn Rakhna!
            Aaj bhi wahi naam likhunga... Fikar Not!

                                                                                                                             Ankita.

I always wrote Ankita at the end of greeting cards or any gifts instead of my name. (for obvious reasons)
She read the letter and looked at me. Her eyes shining almost crying. She started weeping and hugged me. This never ever to me... For the first time we came so close... She wept like a child... I had no words or I guess I was not in my senses... I didn't care what the world said neither did she... After regaining my senses I too embraced her and then she said something which took my breath away.

"I Love You... I Love you..." She kept on saying while she was crying.
"I Love You Too..." I was choked.
"I won't leave you... I Love You..." And kissed my cheeks.
I hugged her with all the love.

"I'll talk to my dad... I'll do whatever it takes to be with you... Am glad we met... Am glad you wrote this letter or else I would have never known that someone loves me so much... I am Sorry to keep you waiting for so long... But not anymore... We'll be together... Forever."
"I... I... "
She placed her hand on my heart and said "Don't worry am not leaving you... Say it..."
"I Love You Suhani"
"I Love You Too" She replied and winked.

In the end she broke her engagement... My mom is marwadi that made it easy for us to convince her dad as they were marwadi too.
So 'Marriage' was added as a suffix to 'Love' for the first time in her family.


"Let your heart speak the language of love before its too late"