That One (Love) Letter

It was one usual day, but she was upset and I had to meet her and make her SMILE.

"Hey meet me after your classes, just for 5 minutes." I messaged

"Kyun milna hai" She replied after 5 minutes I guess

"Hai kuch kaam, Kuch dena hai.."

"Hmm"

Now whenever she replied with "Hmm" or "Ok" it stated she was in a bad mood or rather upset. I had no clue what i was going to give her. I said so just because i wanted to meet her. I returned home and decided to write something for her, I did not think what i was going to write but i made sure whatever i write should bring that SMILE back to her face.

She calls herself my fan because she likes what I write, my Shayris, The Quotes and for the first time I was writing something that did not have any brain in it but only what I felt. I reached home and first thing in my to do list was to start writing. I had to meet her by 8.30 outside her classes so I made sure I was on time. I wrote the letter without thinking a bit just kept on jotting down what came to my heart at that very moment... I was a bit choked all the moments were flashing like those in some Yash Raj movies... :) There was a slideshow in my mind, of all the time we spent together till the time i finished writing.

Sorry but cannot POST the letter as it was meant to be read only by her. ;-)

I reached on time in fact 15 minutes earlier than the decided time. I stood there with my hands as cold as ice, sweating like it was hot summer... As the time came closer to meet her, my heart started pounding even faster... After waiting for a while I saw her.

The moment I see her I swear to god I feel as if this is the best thing that can ever happen to me. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Her smile, her eyes so beautiful brown almond shaped big eyes as that of a new born baby (Has mentioned this line in the letter too) So gorgeous... those flicks of her when they kiss her cheeks I so very love to see that.. but I feel quite jealous too at the same time, I wish I was them... She was upset but managed to keep that smile on her face but nothing was hidden from me the moment she came and stood next to me. Everything was understood without saying a word it was the feeling that spoke.

"Hi" I said

"Hello" She replied with that fake smile.

"Kya haal hai? "

"Am Fine, Bolo" I loved to here that... I loved when she said "Bolo" don't know why but I do...

"This is for you" I gave her the letter.

"Tune likha hai?"

"Nai mere padosi ne" I said and we both giggled.

"You want me to read it now?" She questioned

I nodded in affirmation.

As she started reading the smile was visible already... and as she read, the Smile just grew bigger and bigger and at the end she was left with one beautiful Ear to Ear smile. Wow! She is so beautiful... I said to myself the latter part.

"You know what? Aaj tak kisi ne bhi mujhe aisa koi letter (Love letter) nai diya hai.. Aur shayad koi dega bhi nahi..." She looked at the letter and continued... "You made me really happy today... I can say itni khushi mujhe aaj tak kabhi nahi hui... aur hogi bhi nahi i guess... i never thought someone would write me a love letter" she said all this while she was still smiling.

I had a mini heart attack after hearing that... "You made my day sweetheart... You made my day... I... Mai puri zindagi bita sakta hun us ek pal ke sahare..." We both laughed. Words just flooded in... I had no clue what I am saying or what am I gonna say next... I kept looking at her... We both wanted to Hug each other embrace each other but couldn't as there were students around, so we chose to do the otherwise... We shared smiles.. lots of smiles... we spoke a lot without saying anything... It was first time I felt that she too has that soft corner.... She too felt somewhere deep inside for me... We ain't in relationship but we both do feel for each other... There's no name for this relationship that we share... But whatever it is.. it feels the best when she's around... When she smiles, when she winks... I love her so much... I so very do...

"You really made me very happy today" She messaged at night

"So did you" I replied

"What did i do?"

"That line meant a lot to me babu :) "

"You really made me feel that I am very special for you"

"You are sweetheart :)"

"And it showed how much do you love me"

" :) " I was smiling like a kid

"Today i feel like saying it: I Love You"

It was always me saying I love you and then she replied to it but for the first time actually second time that she said it...

"I Love You Too :) "

One should just say what they feel before its too late... You have no reason to love, as Love is unreasonable, unconditional the moment you start giving reasons that's not love my friend.. that's not love...."

They say its good to be with someone who loves you than being with someone whom you love.

Memories

You were my life,
I wanted you to be my wife,
You did not reciprocate my feeling,
And all i am left with is, memories and no healing.


I never wanted to see you cry,
That's the only thing I always try,
I will Love you till I die,
But all I am left with is, memories that make me cry.


Your smile always made me smile,
Your notorious sniggers still makes me wild,
To me you were like a child,
But all I am left with is, memories scattered in aisle.


I still remember all the promises,
Even though you broke all your promises,
I promised you my promises,
But all I am left with is, memories of your broken promises.


I remember your first touch,
How can i ever forget the feather like touch,
I love you so very much,
That i have memories of you and still no grudge.


I am choked I might cry,
Please come back before i die,
All I had was you,
But all I am left with is, memories that has you.

A Walk To Remember

It was just another beautiful evening. Grey clouds covering the sky, a few punches to them and they would have cried than and there. Winds dressed in their best. Cold winds, dark clouds, sun playing hide and seek with the water splashing and shining at the creek.

We three Me, Jigar and Harshit often went for a walk to the creek near by. It had been a long time though this time, we played cricket in our colony and decided to go for a walk after ages. On our walk we use to go gaga over Computers, Technology, Future Plans etcetera etcetera but this time the topic was changed to cars as Jigar was taking one. This guy goes in deep detailing about everything than let it be cars, BEST bus routes or Western railways. I sometimes feel he is being paid for doing that all the time and mostly i ignored all he said about Bus Service, about new bus routes and railways. This time the topic was good enough and interesting too. Harshit and Jigar both shared their experiences about driving, the mileage their cars gave or would give, the time taken to reach Goregaon and the rest is history. 


"Its a beautiful weather guys, lets go to creek and enjoy it. What say?" Jigar asked and I nodded in affirmation and so did Harshit.


"Hey i wont eat sev puri today i will definitely try omelet" He said while we passed through the Bhel Puri corner on our way to creek. Almost every time whenever Jigar, Lokesh and me went for a walk we had Pani Puri and this disgusted Jigar today as once the Water of Pani Puri was a bit salty and Jigar as usual went on cribbing about it.


"Fine! you can try whatever you want no one is stopping you" I said looking at the tea stall.


"You want to? " Harshit asked me pointing towards the Tea Stall.


"No No i have quit tea long time back" I chuckled.


"Why so?" He questioned me again.


"Ah! Doctor asked me to that asap i use to have lots of it approx 12-14 cups a day so... "I said.


"Oh!" He exclaimed.


We reached creek and it was the best part of the evening i thought, but no, there was something much much better waiting for me. We stood on the deck that was built so that the boats may load and unload during low tide. Mostly the boats (Ferry) were of Beach or Esselworld and Water Kingdom. We stood on the deck feeling every bit of winds and sweet sound of water splashing. The sun stood between two clouds appearing to be the light of faith and good will.

"I am feeling uneasy and restless yaar" I said rubbing my hands.

"You'll be fine its OK" Jigar tapped my shoulder as he said.

The boat from Esselworld came, the workers on the boat tied it to the iron railings of the deck. People started to come out and we were standing next to the boat resting our asses on the railing adjacent to it. What i saw next gave me goosebumps, my palms were wet and i was feeling even more restless now. I saw Suhani.

"Oh shit! Suhani" I said and turned around to the opposite side.

"Where? i can't see her. " Jigar started searching too.

Harshit had no clue what we were talking about he didn't knew who was Suhani so he kept quite and just looked around.

"She's there, she just got down from the boat, there in pink Kurti." I replied while i stammered on the same time.

"Ya ya i can see her now, she is with family i guess, i can see her mom too, here comes her sis, there's another sister too with a small baby with her..." He said in an excited tone.

"Will you please shut the fuck up! that's not funny at all... " I shouted.

"She has gained some weight dude..." Jigar chuckled.

"Will you please shut up! and it doesn't matter to me whether she's slim or gaining weight i always loved her for who she was... What the hell am i saying? " I was irritated at the same time was controlling hard enough to not to turn around and look at her.

I was standing next to the ramp that was made for people to make their way out of creek. She came and stood next to me now her back facing my face. I turned around again in my previous position so that she could not see me. I was in thoughts again. There was a flashback slideshow in my mind running at the lowest bit rate possible. She looked beautiful every next time i saw her. This time she looked like an angel to me, she persist in looking beautiful even today. Her pink Kurti gave more charm to her looks, i wish i could see her smile again just once.

Everything came back to me like a bazooka. Her smile, her big beautiful eyes, her graceful walk, her silent behavior, her sniggers, her chuckles, her smile with a bit of shyness, her habit of biting her lips when she had no words to speak or while she smiled. Each and everything that i was running away from came back to me again with a bang.

She left and she was out of my sight, we too decided to go back home. On our way back i saw her again and this time all my feeling were over flowing at the speed as that of Niagara Falls. My eyes were wet already my  palms still sweaty, I saw her walking again, i like her walk she had the most graceful and amazing walk that i had ever seen. One word from me and i would have started sobbing like a child for lollipop. She walked like a princess. She took a rick and just went...

Jigar called up Bhagyashri her college friend. They were close friends and studied together. I wonder how come they don't feel for each other if they studied together everyday for last 4 years i guess, or even if they did they kept it to themselves. Now i knew her and was a good friend of mine too.

"Guess what! We saw Suhani now... " Jigar shouted on the phone i couldn't hear the other side of the conversation but he handed over the phone to me.

"That's not funny i am telling you again... I don't wanna talk to anyone..." I shouted again but i took his cellphone "Look i don't wanna talk about it.. Its not funny for me..." I handed over the phone to him again.

For the next 20 minutes i did not utter a word. We had Pani Puri again that day and Jigar was still talking to her. I asked him to give me the phone and i apologized for my rude behavior.

"I am sorry yaar... I thought he called me up in the funny manner so... Sorry..." She said in a baby tone.

"NO yaar i am sorry you don't have to be, i was rude... You know right? its been 8 years now i have been waiting for this girl so... Sorry again"I apologized again.

We went back home and that night i just couldn't sleep...  It was her all over my mind again.. Her images kept on flashing in front of me. Why did i turn around? I wanted to see her the other day, so why didn't i today? What was the reason for this? Are you just pretending that you don't love her? Do you really don't love her anymore? Why can't i forget her? Do i still care about her? Will I be able to forget her ever?  Her eyes were beautiful, they might kill me someday. All the questions kept on wandering in my mind.


I said to myself while i was sleeping with my eyes open, this was really "A WALK TO REMEMBER"


                

Worlds Music Day

 Its the Worlds Music Day. Make It Count..!

My Heart says...

My Heart says I love you.

My Heart says I still miss you.

My Heart believes in you.

My Heart feels for you.

My Heart hates your absence.

My Heart loves that single glance.

My Heart remembers every single thing of yours.

My Heart remember every single word of yours.

My Heart keeps beating for you.

My Heart keeps on searching for you.


 My Heart Says... Come Back... Please... Come Back.


(@TheMantalBwoy)

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 5 - I Love You Too

As soon as Rahul disconnected the call he stood up from his seat, ran towards the rare gate and literally jumped off the bus. His head was bleeding but he just didn't care and started running... He ran as fast as he could all he knew was he had to meet Tina again, he wanted to see her once again, wanted to talk to her just once again... He kept running till he reached her apartment and to his surprise Tinz was just about to enter her wing and he shouted out loud...

"Tina... Tina I LOVE YOU..." He expressed on top of his voice with head bleeding, tears flowing with the rate of his heartbeats.

Tina turned around, saw and in no time she came running towards him... This was the first time ever Tina had expressed her feelings. She came and hugged Rahul as tight as she could and Rahul too. They both were madly in love for each other and now the whole world could see it. Neither of the two took the initiative to leave each other and kept holding each other, hugging each other till they both cried their hearts out. The world could see them but they didn't really care, all they cared about was each other and their LOVE.

After a while they both stopped crying had a sleek smile with a bit of shyness in it. Rahul than kissed her forehead and Tina again hugged him and this time even more hard and promising. She didn't want Rahul to leave and neither Rahul wanted her to leave. 

"I love you... I love you so much..." Rahul said while Tina interrupted.

"I love You Rahul... I Love You... I am glad you came or else i would have been alone for the rest of my life. I don't care about what my family would say what society would say but i care about is you, i care about my love... I Love you..." She said with tears in her eyes and kissed Rahul's forehead, cheeks, chin , eyes, lips... and all over his face she kissed again and again and both were crazy for each other.  

"I am glad i came or else i too would have been alone for the rest of my life... I Love you too my angel i just do... I don't know why but i do... i won't ever leave you again... and if i ever leave you than that would the last day of my life..." Rahul replied and Tina again stopped him and they both kissed.

"Why didn't you tell me at the temple itself that you too loved me ? I almost died when i saw you moving out of my life. I promise you i won't ever leave you..." Rahul said and paused.

"I just couldn't all i thought about was my dad but on my way home all i was thinking was you, our memories and had decided that i won't marry to anyone other than you. And see you came... " She said with smile on her face.

"Yes i had to... or else i would have died each day without you..." Rahul smiled.

"Lets go to doc your head is bleeding and than i and you.. we both will convince my dad i am sure you'll convince him too just like you convinced me..." She said and they both laughed.

They both than cleared their faces looked at each other and started smiling. They both headed towards the doctors clinic. They both walked with hand in hand for the first time. They both embraced each other. Loved, hugged, Kissed, Missed each other... 

Rahul and Tina managed to convince Tina's dad and they got married on 16th November 2015. It was raining again. Rahul had his own business set up while Tina became a journalist that she couldn't as her dad did not allow her to. Rahul allowed her to study journalism and made her dream come true. 

Say It Before Its Too Late.

Only Few people Are Gifted With Love... Accept it!

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW

( @TheMantalBwoy )

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I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 4 - With or Without You...

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 4 - With or Without You...

It has been two days now, Rahul is still waiting for the reply and on the third day i.e 23rd December 2009 Tina scraps him: "We can be good friends if you want to?"

Is she serious? Just Friends? How can I suppress my feelings for her? I how i act normal, as a friend? But what if i say no? Will she be gone out of my life? I wont be able to see her anymore or talk to her?

  

Rahul kept on thinking about all this questions... his ahead was about to burst and finally he made the second  most idiotic, stupid and hopeless decision of his life. First was proposing her so early and that too in so technical way.

He replied: "Ya fine... We can be friends its totally fine with me.. but promise me you'll be with me forever..." He replied and then realized was that forever thing so necessary to say? Rahul was an emotional fool, anyone could have used him easily. He always thought from his heart and never used his organ called BRAIN. 

They kept on talking again the same way and without knowing Rahul was getting more and more attached to Tina which lead him to serious problem called TRUE LOVE. He went crazy for her, all he wanted was Tina... 

I NEED YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU... I DON'T LOVE YOU BECAUSE I NEED YOU. he always said this to Tina. He was way too expressive he never kept anything to himself he always expressed it to her and when she was not there for him he use to write it in his Diary. Whenever he felt like saying something to her he wrote it in his diary when she was not there to listen to him.

By now he was totally mad, crazy, dedicated, loyal and etc etc etc for Tina... He always thought about her dreamed about her... Liked her... lived for her... Embraced her... and everything thing just for her... He had no idea what he would do without her... and now when they both are apart he just can't live without her...!!!

Rahul finally coming out of his memories as his cell phone rings, its her Mom - Maa as he calls her Mother.

"Yes i am on my way home... "

"Yes i am fine... its just the dirt around due to traffic"

"No i am not crying... Maa bye am coming home..." He hangs up with tears in his eyes. Her mom could easily find out that he was crying and the reason too was known to her.

What happens next was something bizarre?  What must have happened? Why is it so bizarre? Anything wrong? Is Tina fine? Is Rahul ok? Will he reach home?

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