It was Last day of my school everyone was promising to stay in touch, planning for an outing and some were busy with their plates filled with excess of food almost having a hungry child's meal. I was standing alone far from everyone and staring her. Thinking what would I do after school... Not in case of studies but how will I be able to see her ( The Only Girl I Liked or Loved )
There was this girl in my class Suhani. The topper of the class and the school. A big time geek ( well others felt so ) Simple girl with no habits of a girl except Studying. I never saw her gossiping or yapping around. She never remained absent and that was the only reason I never bunked or missed any classes or days of my school. She was hopelessly gorgeous. Cute Greek nose, fair, beautifully curved pink lips and even better when she smiles my god she made me crazy then. School for me was just looking at her... The way she writes, the way she talks ( though negligible ) Her smile... Her hair when she use to tie a pony and those flicks kissing her cheeks and in every minute or two she use to put them behind ears... I wished to be those flicks too at times.
So I was standing - staring - imagining - and to my surprise I saw her walking towards me. My mouth open jaw dropping down slowly. As she came closer my heartbeats started increasing it would have left any F1 car way behind, that fast. She was wearing pink saree with no make up, just a hint of pink lipstick and Kohl which she wore everyday. Her eyes were big like a new born baby's eye and shining bright as if in immense happiness. In no time she was standing in front of me and I was staring hard at her straight into her eyes. She clicked her fingers in front of my face and brought me back to the real world.
"Hi am Suhani..."
"Hi.. Sorry I was Just..."
"What kind of a name is this? " She chuckled and asked.
"Am Harsh... And by the way I know you... Actually everyone does..." I was nervous my hands sweating like hell... Heart pumped so fast I thought even she would hear it.
"So what even I know you..." She smiled and said.
"You do? How" I inquired in a shock.
"Well how can I not know my fan... My biggest fan..." She said and started laughing. She looked even more beautiful. Her hair left open and those flicks again playing their part.
"Haha I fan? I didn't get you!" Another question. At times I talk less and question more.
"I know you stare me THE WHOLE DAY" She emphasized on those last 3 words.
"No I just..."
"Shhh don't deny I have seen you staring me" she paused and continued slowly " I like that".
I had nothing to say... I just looked at her with my idiotic blank face.
"You are the only guy in the ENTIRE school who looks at me with a feeling of friendship with a feeling of LOVE... Rest everyone thinks all I want is marks and they think I have attitude and so no one talks to me" Her face dropped with sadness.
"Hey don't be sad... and there for you" I had no clue why in the world I said this... I was regretting it.
But... on the very next second i didn't. She came close to me like very close and kissed my right cheek and said "Thank you so much... And you know what... I kinda like you... You are honest and simple." She said with a smile a beautiful smile.
By now I had come to know whenever she became nervous she use to bite her lower lip slowly...
"Don't bite them they are beautiful..." I replied with a smile FOR THE FIRST TIME. I was on cloud nine...
She looked at me her smile grew from broad broader to BROADEST.
"So..."
"So..."
"So Do you Too...?"
"I too what?"
"Will you always be so nervous, are you really that dumb or you act like one?" She giggled.
"Hmm actually..."
"Just say it idiot..." She came near me held my hand filling the spaces between fingers.
"I LOVE YOU... A LOT... I JUST DO... YOU MAKE ME GO CRAZY..." I said as fast as I can. She started laughing and slapped me slowly playfully and said "I LOVE YOU TOO..." she came close to my ear and whispered "MORE THAN YOU"
"Promise me one thing... You'll never let 'US' fall apart" She said
"Never Ever... Even after our last breath" I replied
She smiled holding my hand, we left from school had dinner and coffee at a small 'Tapri' where I use to go, as she too loved coffee.
I never understood what happened that night... From where did she come... Why did she loved me... What did I do that she loved me... Many questions came in my mind that night... I was smiling like an idiot after dropping her at her place.
We both completed are college.. Same college same class same bench... We both were hot favorite of our college... Always stayed together... Never fought... and always helped people in love... She loved to do that.. and so did I of course.
Unfortunately we couldn't get job in the same company... She took up teaching and I selected Web Designing... We never use to chat on mobile phones... We both preferred meeting... Or phone calls... Our phone calls lasted maximum for 5 min... We use to write letters... We both loved 'Purana Zamane Wala Love' We exchanged letters if any when we met so that we could have all the memories safe. She was a good writer actually a superb writer. Her letters showed love and my letters had nothing special... I still use to follow letter formats taught in school and she use to get mad at me and I use to laugh like a devil... at the end she use to hug me kiss my cheeks and only then she left.
The best part was it wasn't a routine every hug was with love... Every kiss was with a hope of seeing you again and a concern to stay fine and taking care.
One day I thought of playing a prank with her and wrote a letter saying this is our last meeting and we wont ever meet again... Please forget me... and blah blah blah...
I handed her the letter trying hard not laugh... She read and started laughing... "You think I'll believe this...? Love you..." and she hugged me... I took the prank ahead... I did not reciprocate. She then felt something was really wrong... Please don't tell me all this is true... I would die without you baby... Tell me whats wrong... What mistake have I made... and she burst into tears... the first thing that came to my mind was NOW AM A DEAD MAN... HOW CAN I MAKE HER CRY...?
"Hey am so sorry... Mai mazak ka raha tha... Shhhh... please dont cry please... am so sorry... Was kidding but am so sorry... Sorry to make you cry... Am ready for any punishment you like..." I was holding her face... wiping her tears and I too started weeping... like a child...
"I hate you... You made me cry..." She cried and hugged me tightly... This time I did reciprocate with all my love. "Don't ever leave me... You are my life... If you Die I die..." She said hugging me and crying like a baby and talking in a Baby's Tone.
"Am so sorry... Please forgive me... You are my life too... Even if you die I die..."
She stopped hugging and was now holding my face and said "NO... If I die you Live... I'll wait for you upstairs... I don't want our love to die because of me" and kissed me.
We went home and it was 8 in the night, I was having my dinner and my phone rang.. It was Suhani! I disconnected as she knew disconnecting meant either busy or Having Dinner. Phone rang again and the screen flashed her name again... This time I answered as I thought it would be urgent. "Having dinner jee! You had?" On the other side a male voice replied "Hello! Harsh... Yahan ek accident hua hai... Jiska accident hua hai uske phone se baat kar raha hun... Aap jaldi citizen hospital mai aa jao..."
I was stoned by the news. I left my food on the table and ran out of my house without informing anybody at my place... I reached to the hospital and asked for Suhani's room... I was sweating, tears filled upto the corners of the eyes... as soon as I saw Suhani I broke into tears... I ran straight to her... Her face was full of blood... her hands and legs hurt badly... I was weeping hard... I did not ask anyone anything... I cried cried and cried my Suhani was hurt... She was in pain... She was bleeding... Doctor then took hold of me... and took me out of the room... "Look she's in a critical state... Her head banged hard to the cars windshield and... " Doctor stopped... "And what doctor... What happened to my Suhani" I was crying and shouting at the same time... "and the car ran on the left part of her body.. Damaging her entire left part. She is very critical and there are no chances no hopes."
"I fell down on my knees..." My mind was blank... no thoughts just Suhani all over my mind... By then Suhani's parents too reached at the hospital.
Her dad made me stand... "She'll be fine... Kuch nai hoga usse beta..."
I looked at him and hugged him and cried, wept like anything...
All I had was Suhani and our memories... Our future plans she had made... Everything she said came like a flashback... I did not wanted to lose her... I did not wanted to stay without her... I thought it is a punishment for evening prank that I played... I cursed myself... I went to her room and sat next to her... Scratches all over her face... Her hands... Her Shoulders... I was weeping again... "I am sorry Suhani... Please forgive me.. Please... Get up... We need to do lot of things yet... Please don't leave..." I cried my heart out.
I slept lying on her bed and in the morning at 7 she made some movements... "Harsh" She said in a very slow voice... I could feel her pain from her voice... I stood up, looked at her... I called the doctor. He examined her and I was told to wait outside. "Harsh she needs to talk to you... Please don't put stress on her..."
I ran inside saw her eyes open a bit... " Suhani..." and I were in tears again... "Don't cry..." She was talking in a very low voice. "Shh... don't..." I kissed her forehead... She smiled... and said "I'll wait for you upstairs"
"No Suhani you are not going anywhere... We have to live togther..."
"I lived my life...A beautiful life... Thank you for that..." ... "No babu... please dont say this... I cant live without you..." I cried. "NO... If I die you Live" and she smiled again... FOR THE LAST TIME.
I was all alone... Except her memories... her smile...
I still go to our meeting place and read her letters... Our memories.
Suhani left me.
My love My Life My Soul Left Me.
I kept her promise... I lived... And did not let us fell apart EVEN AFTER OUR LAST BREATH.
I just lived... I am just living because I am breathing...
Writing this for her... For my Love... For Suhani... She loved to read... I'll still write for her...
Love You Suhani. Till my last breath... and even after that... Fulfilling 'Another Beautiful Promise' of yours. Not letting our love fall apart because of you.
There was this girl in my class Suhani. The topper of the class and the school. A big time geek ( well others felt so ) Simple girl with no habits of a girl except Studying. I never saw her gossiping or yapping around. She never remained absent and that was the only reason I never bunked or missed any classes or days of my school. She was hopelessly gorgeous. Cute Greek nose, fair, beautifully curved pink lips and even better when she smiles my god she made me crazy then. School for me was just looking at her... The way she writes, the way she talks ( though negligible ) Her smile... Her hair when she use to tie a pony and those flicks kissing her cheeks and in every minute or two she use to put them behind ears... I wished to be those flicks too at times.
So I was standing - staring - imagining - and to my surprise I saw her walking towards me. My mouth open jaw dropping down slowly. As she came closer my heartbeats started increasing it would have left any F1 car way behind, that fast. She was wearing pink saree with no make up, just a hint of pink lipstick and Kohl which she wore everyday. Her eyes were big like a new born baby's eye and shining bright as if in immense happiness. In no time she was standing in front of me and I was staring hard at her straight into her eyes. She clicked her fingers in front of my face and brought me back to the real world.
"Hi am Suhani..."
"Hi.. Sorry I was Just..."
"What kind of a name is this? " She chuckled and asked.
"Am Harsh... And by the way I know you... Actually everyone does..." I was nervous my hands sweating like hell... Heart pumped so fast I thought even she would hear it.
"So what even I know you..." She smiled and said.
"You do? How" I inquired in a shock.
"Well how can I not know my fan... My biggest fan..." She said and started laughing. She looked even more beautiful. Her hair left open and those flicks again playing their part.
"Haha I fan? I didn't get you!" Another question. At times I talk less and question more.
"I know you stare me THE WHOLE DAY" She emphasized on those last 3 words.
"No I just..."
"Shhh don't deny I have seen you staring me" she paused and continued slowly " I like that".
I had nothing to say... I just looked at her with my idiotic blank face.
"You are the only guy in the ENTIRE school who looks at me with a feeling of friendship with a feeling of LOVE... Rest everyone thinks all I want is marks and they think I have attitude and so no one talks to me" Her face dropped with sadness.
"Hey don't be sad... and there for you" I had no clue why in the world I said this... I was regretting it.
But... on the very next second i didn't. She came close to me like very close and kissed my right cheek and said "Thank you so much... And you know what... I kinda like you... You are honest and simple." She said with a smile a beautiful smile.
By now I had come to know whenever she became nervous she use to bite her lower lip slowly...
"Don't bite them they are beautiful..." I replied with a smile FOR THE FIRST TIME. I was on cloud nine...
She looked at me her smile grew from broad broader to BROADEST.
"So..."
"So..."
"So Do you Too...?"
"I too what?"
"Will you always be so nervous, are you really that dumb or you act like one?" She giggled.
"Hmm actually..."
"Just say it idiot..." She came near me held my hand filling the spaces between fingers.
"I LOVE YOU... A LOT... I JUST DO... YOU MAKE ME GO CRAZY..." I said as fast as I can. She started laughing and slapped me slowly playfully and said "I LOVE YOU TOO..." she came close to my ear and whispered "MORE THAN YOU"
"Promise me one thing... You'll never let 'US' fall apart" She said
"Never Ever... Even after our last breath" I replied
She smiled holding my hand, we left from school had dinner and coffee at a small 'Tapri' where I use to go, as she too loved coffee.
I never understood what happened that night... From where did she come... Why did she loved me... What did I do that she loved me... Many questions came in my mind that night... I was smiling like an idiot after dropping her at her place.
We both completed are college.. Same college same class same bench... We both were hot favorite of our college... Always stayed together... Never fought... and always helped people in love... She loved to do that.. and so did I of course.
Unfortunately we couldn't get job in the same company... She took up teaching and I selected Web Designing... We never use to chat on mobile phones... We both preferred meeting... Or phone calls... Our phone calls lasted maximum for 5 min... We use to write letters... We both loved 'Purana Zamane Wala Love' We exchanged letters if any when we met so that we could have all the memories safe. She was a good writer actually a superb writer. Her letters showed love and my letters had nothing special... I still use to follow letter formats taught in school and she use to get mad at me and I use to laugh like a devil... at the end she use to hug me kiss my cheeks and only then she left.
The best part was it wasn't a routine every hug was with love... Every kiss was with a hope of seeing you again and a concern to stay fine and taking care.
One day I thought of playing a prank with her and wrote a letter saying this is our last meeting and we wont ever meet again... Please forget me... and blah blah blah...
I handed her the letter trying hard not laugh... She read and started laughing... "You think I'll believe this...? Love you..." and she hugged me... I took the prank ahead... I did not reciprocate. She then felt something was really wrong... Please don't tell me all this is true... I would die without you baby... Tell me whats wrong... What mistake have I made... and she burst into tears... the first thing that came to my mind was NOW AM A DEAD MAN... HOW CAN I MAKE HER CRY...?
"Hey am so sorry... Mai mazak ka raha tha... Shhhh... please dont cry please... am so sorry... Was kidding but am so sorry... Sorry to make you cry... Am ready for any punishment you like..." I was holding her face... wiping her tears and I too started weeping... like a child...
"I hate you... You made me cry..." She cried and hugged me tightly... This time I did reciprocate with all my love. "Don't ever leave me... You are my life... If you Die I die..." She said hugging me and crying like a baby and talking in a Baby's Tone.
"Am so sorry... Please forgive me... You are my life too... Even if you die I die..."
She stopped hugging and was now holding my face and said "NO... If I die you Live... I'll wait for you upstairs... I don't want our love to die because of me" and kissed me.
We went home and it was 8 in the night, I was having my dinner and my phone rang.. It was Suhani! I disconnected as she knew disconnecting meant either busy or Having Dinner. Phone rang again and the screen flashed her name again... This time I answered as I thought it would be urgent. "Having dinner jee! You had?" On the other side a male voice replied "Hello! Harsh... Yahan ek accident hua hai... Jiska accident hua hai uske phone se baat kar raha hun... Aap jaldi citizen hospital mai aa jao..."
I was stoned by the news. I left my food on the table and ran out of my house without informing anybody at my place... I reached to the hospital and asked for Suhani's room... I was sweating, tears filled upto the corners of the eyes... as soon as I saw Suhani I broke into tears... I ran straight to her... Her face was full of blood... her hands and legs hurt badly... I was weeping hard... I did not ask anyone anything... I cried cried and cried my Suhani was hurt... She was in pain... She was bleeding... Doctor then took hold of me... and took me out of the room... "Look she's in a critical state... Her head banged hard to the cars windshield and... " Doctor stopped... "And what doctor... What happened to my Suhani" I was crying and shouting at the same time... "and the car ran on the left part of her body.. Damaging her entire left part. She is very critical and there are no chances no hopes."
"I fell down on my knees..." My mind was blank... no thoughts just Suhani all over my mind... By then Suhani's parents too reached at the hospital.
Her dad made me stand... "She'll be fine... Kuch nai hoga usse beta..."
I looked at him and hugged him and cried, wept like anything...
All I had was Suhani and our memories... Our future plans she had made... Everything she said came like a flashback... I did not wanted to lose her... I did not wanted to stay without her... I thought it is a punishment for evening prank that I played... I cursed myself... I went to her room and sat next to her... Scratches all over her face... Her hands... Her Shoulders... I was weeping again... "I am sorry Suhani... Please forgive me.. Please... Get up... We need to do lot of things yet... Please don't leave..." I cried my heart out.
I slept lying on her bed and in the morning at 7 she made some movements... "Harsh" She said in a very slow voice... I could feel her pain from her voice... I stood up, looked at her... I called the doctor. He examined her and I was told to wait outside. "Harsh she needs to talk to you... Please don't put stress on her..."
I ran inside saw her eyes open a bit... " Suhani..." and I were in tears again... "Don't cry..." She was talking in a very low voice. "Shh... don't..." I kissed her forehead... She smiled... and said "I'll wait for you upstairs"
"No Suhani you are not going anywhere... We have to live togther..."
"I lived my life...A beautiful life... Thank you for that..." ... "No babu... please dont say this... I cant live without you..." I cried. "NO... If I die you Live" and she smiled again... FOR THE LAST TIME.
I was all alone... Except her memories... her smile...
I still go to our meeting place and read her letters... Our memories.
Suhani left me.
My love My Life My Soul Left Me.
I kept her promise... I lived... And did not let us fell apart EVEN AFTER OUR LAST BREATH.
I just lived... I am just living because I am breathing...
Writing this for her... For my Love... For Suhani... She loved to read... I'll still write for her...
Love You Suhani. Till my last breath... and even after that... Fulfilling 'Another Beautiful Promise' of yours. Not letting our love fall apart because of you.
@TheMantalBwoy
Awesome bro..another nice piece of writing :) looking forward for more soon..
ReplyDeleteU made me cry :'(
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