The Day I Died

"Ummm wanna meet you, NOW!"
"Why? What happened? All good? Sab thik?"
"Shuuu..t.."
"Ohhhh Missing me huh?" I interrupted
"Shut up, Don't ask me anything now, will let you know everything... But, first meet me as soon as possible."
"Ohhhhhkk"
"So See you in 30 minutes."
"What?Wait! 30Minutes!? Is it that important?"
"Yes! and you better not be late"
"ok!" I said in a low tone but she had disconnected the call.

            The conversation made my brain think NOTHING. She was tensed and worried I could sense that. There was this weird feeling approaching me... which said 'Something's gonna happen, SOMETHING BAD... or rather WORST'. I was now thinking at the speed of light. Actually I was OVER thinking and when you over think its only Negative thoughts that cover your mind like the black clouds before rain.
Lots of questions started hitting me here and there everywhere... What would have happened? Is she ok? Is everything at her place fine? has anyone got the hint about us, we being in a relationship? What if her Dad gets to know about this? Will he accept us(me)? (No. my mind replied the very next second )Will her sister help us? What if she asks me to marry her? Am I ready? Will I be able to take her responsibility NOW? How will I convince her dad? Do we have run and get married? and on and on and on... this continued until I reached.
           We met at an old under construction building as no one saw us there as the construction work was stopped long time back.  We sat at the top most slab of the building, the 8th floor. It had nothing except few incomplete pillars. I went upstairs running, falling on my knees twice.
          I loved her so much, more than anyone. She was my life and still is. It took her 5 years to confess, to say that she loved me. She was on my mind every second, my dreams always comprised of her, I could go gaga about her for the entire day... 'I Love Her'. She was 'Pretty' but her heart was 'Gorgeous' , 'Spotless' , 'Bliss' I couldn't have asked for anything else. She meant 'World' to me. Her eyes 'Big fat almond shaped just like a new born baby's' her hair 'Sheer Beauty' those flicks when rested on her cheeks would add more charm to her beauty. She got beautiful every time I met her. I still have no clue how she use to do that. She had the most graceful walk and the best part was 'She was beautiful and she didn't knew it' And now for the first time ever she was upset, the girl I love, the love I admired.
          While I was on my way I made sure I buy something for her, to bring that 'Smile' on her face again. So I picked up Red rose and a Dark Chocolate (Her Favorite). I reached upstairs and to not to my surprise she was already waiting for me as I was 10 minutes late. "Sooorrrr..." I did not even complete my sorry and she came running and hugged me. The flower and the Chocolate were down. I was now getting more worried, I could feel the tears on my shoulder and in no time she was crying... and sobbing.

"Hey! What happened?" I tried to release myself from her magical embrace but I couldn't.
"Shhh..." She was still crying like a baby.
"Stay here... In my arms" She ORDERED many times
"Am always there for you... In your arms and heart... Don't worry, whatever it is, will be fine." I consoled. 
 I decided to keep quite and let her cry, maybe that would make her calm down and she will be able to speak than.

            After about 5 minutes of crying, sobbing, hugging, embracing and consoling she finally released me from her. She stood in front of me with eyes swollen, pink cheeks and tomato red nose. She placed her hands on my cheeks and kissed me all over my face... Forehead, Eyes followed by Noes, Cheeks, Chin and to end with, a passionate kiss on lips. "I Love You... I Love You so much..." She was about to cry again but this time it was me who hugged her.

"Feeling Better? "
"It can never be better." She said holding my hands.
"What? I am not getting you? Whats the issue sweetheart?" I was getting nervous, impatient, restless and don't know what else.
"ITS OVER"
"Whats over?"
"ITS ALL OVER BETWEEN US"
"Whh...hhaattttt are you saying? Are you in your senses? "
"I wish I was not... I wish" She was crying again.
"Look at me... Tell me exactly, whats the issue, whats the fuzz about... Why are you crying? And OVER? Are you out of your mind?" I would get paranoid by now but I never shouted or scolded her so I kept my voice low.
"Please tell me dear..." I continued. Both of us staring deep into each others eyes, I was lost then and there. 'ITS OVER' kept echoing in my mind.
"We have to put an end to our relationship, my... my wedding has been fixed."
"WHAT!" It was more of a shock than a question. "And you too Agreed??? Tell me you are not serious, tell me its a prank, tell me its a dream and will get over soon..." I was broken, I was shattered, My senses were out of order, My mind was not responding. I was numb. I WAS DEAD.
"I don't have the courage to do anything against my dad."
I was in no position to speak and react.
"I am sorry... I know I have hurt you... I know..."She was sobbing again " I know how much you love me, even I do, but... I just don't have courage, those guts to marry you against my dad's will."
I looked at her... Her wet teary eyes... "If you had courage to love me... Why can't you convince your dad? We will convince your dad." I said wiping off the tears running down my cheeks.
"I know my dad... He would rather kill me but he will never accept this."
"Why sweetheart? Why? I... I Love You yaa... " It was me crying now... Like a kid with a broken toy. She broke my heart just like a toy, there was no much difference between me and that kid.
"Please... Don't do this to me... We'll try once... Please... "I was almost pleading her. Tears made their way down the cheeks and in a much rapid way.
"Don't... Don't cry please... Its not easy for me too... I cannot live without you... But we have to do this... Please... For me... For your Love... For your Suhani Please! " And we both cried our heart out. We hugged each other.. We embraced... We kissed... Again and Again... We didn't wanted to leave each other. We wanted to spend our entire life together but here we were... Crying... Meeting for the last time... I couldn't say much as she made me swear on our good times spent together... on our love... on her. At times even though you don't believe on such stuff you end up trusting them and believing them.

I died. With no senses working, nothing in the world seemed fine as the person whom I loved, admired, use to respect was not with me anymore.

"I should now leave..." Her eyes staring mine. "I Love You..."
"Don't say that..." I interrupted.
"Am sorry... But please don't do this... please... I Love You... and will always do..." Tears made their presence again
"I can never ever forget you... I will never forget you... You'll be safe in my heart..." She said those lines and gave me a smile as those lines were once said my me to her. The day I proposed her... the day I was born again and today she was consoling me with the same line on 'The Day I Died'.
"I Love You Too... the time we had spent... Was the time I lived my life... Because they had you... and now... MY LIFE is going away from me, leaving me, to die" I said taking big pauses as I cried and she hugged me tightly and so did I. We kissed and we kissed again.
"Please go before I break down because if I do..."
She was coming close to me again...
"Look if you come any closer... I am not letting you go..." Though this line was from a movie it still had a lot of impact on the situation. She stopped. She did not wanted to leave but she had to. I had to.
She picked up the rose and the chocolate and looked at me with teary eyes... for the very last time. I managed to smile and so did she... She started moving... She was leaving... I was watching her for the last time... Tears were rolling down my cheeks... And in no time she was out of my sight... I was down on my knees and cried out loudly... I was sobbing... Everything about her came to me like a flashback black and white movie... The first time I saw her, the confessions, the coffee, the early morning meetings, the pranks, her laughter, her smile, her giggles, her eyes, her pathetic PJ's everything came back to me like a bazooka.

I had no reason to live, I had many reasons to die. But I wasn't that weak... My love wasn't that weak...
I separated myself from the rest of the world, I started living alone, Talking to no one, I tried to keep myself busy, I worked day and night... But nothing helped... She was still there... She will always be there... My love for her will always persist. If heart beating and senses working means you are living than yes I am living but, If you live for someone, the person you love... I DIED THAT DAY.

Leaving you'll here with many questions Why didn't I force her? Why did she love me if didn't had the courage to face her dad? What happened to her and to me? Did we ever meet? I would say... Its Love... And its not about getting someone... Its not about expecting the love back from them... Its all about feelings.

"Love cannot me forced... Its unconditional, Unreasonable without any Hopes and Expectations"

@TheMantalBwoy

One Beautiful Promise

*Fictitious* 

          It was Saturday I was alone at my place my mom luckily went to visit my granny as she was not doing well. I was waiting for the clock to strike 2 as someone special, the girl I admired, I liked, I loved was coming to meet me... for the last time... Yes for the last time...
It has been 7 years since I loved her... since I saw her for the first time... in my school... I still remember those beautiful eyes, her smile, her flicks that kissed her cheeks every now and then and the way she use to put them behind her left ear. It was Bliss for me then and even now. But unfortunately it was all going to end today...

Why does this happen...??? You try to forget someone but apparently you end up loving them even more... May be that's what you call 'Love' or maybe 'True Love' as they say it... And I am saying all this from my experiences and not just any random philosophical thoughts... "Experience always wins over Philosophy" I say it most of the time and its true too, I believe.

Clock was counting its last minutes to make it 2 pm... and with every minute passing my heartbeat was increasing just like India's population and Inflation... My hands were sweating like hell. This happened to me every time I met her... The time I use to wait for her was directly proportional to amount of nervousness I use to hold. Trust me if anyone would stand by me, he could have easily count my heartbeats, they were that fucking loud.
So... it was 2 and she was late as always... But this time just 5 minutes late... Yes! She was there in front of me, I saw her walking towards my house and in no time she was standing right in front of me... I kept looking at her, I couldn't utter a word. She was waiting for me to let her in but I was already in her dreams. (At times day dreaming is awesome, try it someday)

She looked so gorgeous... so so beautiful. Her beautiful eyes, Kohl eyes I would  say that... Her smile that killed me every time I saw it. She wore a pink Kurti that ended at her knees and black jean. I always liked her in Kurti and jeans and I was glad that she wore it that day. The last day that I would be seeing her.
I came back to the real world as soon as she hit me hard on my left arm.

"Ohh sorry...!!! Please... Please... Come in dear...! Am so sorry to keep you waiting..." I said. I was embarrassed. She smiled and killed me again, I swear.

"Its OK..." she said and giggled.

"Why are you laughing?" I asked with a smile.

"Haha I have never seen someone...so mad in love and... Why in the world do you love me so much?" She killed me twice in minute.

This question was still a mystery for me too... I had no clue why I loved her, and how much I loved her.. all I knew was: I LOVED HER... She use to drive me crazy.

I answered, as I always did: I smiled.

"So why you wanted to meet at my place? We were suppose to meet at CCD right? So.. why this sudden change in the plan?" I fired all the questions together.

"Well, promises are meant to be kept... I had once promised you, that one day i'll surely dance with you... 'Close Dance' " She said and winked.

"Oh! Now that is something I wasn't expecting... I remember I had asked you and you had promised me..." I smiled and continued "Thank you"

"Its OK, its just a dance and as its our last meeting so I thought why not make it special" She said.

Now I just don't understand this thing if you don't love me... Why the hell you want our last meeting to be special? I mean why? She was so difficult to understand.

"That sounds nice..." I said and moved towards my kitchen to make some coffee for both of us. As I entered the kitchen, in no time, she was standing right next to me.

"Let me see how do you make that special coffee of yours..." She said and kept her elbow on my right shoulder. She always liked the coffee I use to make for her and every time she asked me "How do you make  it?" I always replied "Its a secret... Special coffee for Special people and in a special mug" I had this Nescafe mug which had Deepika's autograph embossed on it... I never use to let anyone use that mug of mine but as said she was 'Special'.

So now it was time to keep up the promise. I played one of my favorite song 'Hero' by Enrique and coincidentally  it was her favorite too, so , we decided to dance on that track. This was the first time I came close to her, like very close. My hands on her waist, her hands on my shoulders, our eyes staring, she smiled and I smiled back and felt as if all my senses are about to die, I was about to die... Music started.... Our bodies moved... I could feel her breath, the warmth of her body, her eyes that were more addictive than any drug in this world... her lips so beautiful ; So beautiful that 'Kissing her would be the end of the world'... (I being a filmy guy always used movie dialogues quite often) They(Her lips) were perfect as if god has carved them by himself and would call it as his masterpiece.

It was the best moment of my life, which I would never ever get again. I was loving every second, every bit of it... Every move was perfect, like we have been practicing since ages. What happened next was surprising... I would have never thought it would happen to me. She came even more close to me and hugged me. 'I felt like the king of the world' I wanted that moment to stop then and there itself. I wanted to hold her tight, embrace her, lover her, admire her, kiss her... Yes! Kiss her.

I moved my hand upwards... my hands moved slowly from her waist to her back and yes I completed the hug. She was in my arms, I had my dream, my love in my arms I would have cried out of happiness I was that happy... We both hugged each other tightly and our feet kept moving on the tune... The music stopped we stopped, I was getting in my senses again but there was something more waiting for me that day... I tried to leave her but she did not.

"Don't leave me... Never ever... I feel safe in your arms... I feel complete..." She said while she was still holding me and even more tightly now.

"I wont ever leave you sweetheart... Never ever... But... " There was this ecstatic feeling I had. I was waiting for this moment from the very first moment I had seen her. But why now? when everything was about to get over... This was suppose to our last meeting... So why now? I had so many questions I wanted to ask but chose to do otherwise.

"But what???" She asked.

"But this is our last meeting right? " I questioned her and probably my last question. What she said next was unbelievable.

"No this isn't our last meeting, in fact, this is our first as lovers" She whispered in my ears and continued... "I love you" and she looked at me.

We both were facing each other, eyes stuck, we could feel each others breath, I was holding her, my hands on her back, I pulled her towards me, she tied her hands around my neck and we 'Kissed', it was perfect and as usual I had to bring out the filmy part of mine... I said "The girl doesn't know anything about kissing as its a man's business" she smiled and we kissed again this time it was me who took the initiative. It was the best first kiss actually second.

It feels great when the person whom you love, loves you back... I was on cloud nine. Neither of us wanted to move away. We stood there holding each other, kissing each other, embracing each other... We both felt complete, secured and madly in love. Our hands moving from faces to shoulders than on faces again...

"I am reborn today" She said, her eyes confused whether to look into my eyes or lips.

"If you are reborn, you should be naked" I said and smiled, she kissed me and replied.

"You can have me than..."

"Can I ?" I asked.

"You can have me anytime" She kissed me again this time more passionately.

The above lines were from movie Casino Royale. We had once said this to each other just for fun but this time it was serious. Never thought this would be real.

"I would never do anything that is against your conscience" I said and smiled.

"I love you even more after this..." She said and kissed my right cheek. "So lets keep something for later..." She winked.

"Yes! " I giggled.

"I am glad you kept the promise and I must say this was the most beautiful promise ever." I said holding her hand.

I was in love, she was in love... and when you are in love its the worlds best feeling.
We sat in each others arms that whole evening talking about us... until there was a knock at the door, it was my mom. She(My love) than left after sometime we hugged and waved good bye. But she left many things behind at my place... The memories, her Love, the best day of my life and one ear to ear smile on my face...!

Later that night, all I could think of was that 'Beautiful Promise' that 'One Beautiful Promise'

@TheMantalBwoy

That One (Love) Letter

It was one usual day, but she was upset and I had to meet her and make her SMILE.

"Hey meet me after your classes, just for 5 minutes." I messaged

"Kyun milna hai" She replied after 5 minutes I guess

"Hai kuch kaam, Kuch dena hai.."

"Hmm"

Now whenever she replied with "Hmm" or "Ok" it stated she was in a bad mood or rather upset. I had no clue what i was going to give her. I said so just because i wanted to meet her. I returned home and decided to write something for her, I did not think what i was going to write but i made sure whatever i write should bring that SMILE back to her face.

She calls herself my fan because she likes what I write, my Shayris, The Quotes and for the first time I was writing something that did not have any brain in it but only what I felt. I reached home and first thing in my to do list was to start writing. I had to meet her by 8.30 outside her classes so I made sure I was on time. I wrote the letter without thinking a bit just kept on jotting down what came to my heart at that very moment... I was a bit choked all the moments were flashing like those in some Yash Raj movies... :) There was a slideshow in my mind, of all the time we spent together till the time i finished writing.

Sorry but cannot POST the letter as it was meant to be read only by her. ;-)

I reached on time in fact 15 minutes earlier than the decided time. I stood there with my hands as cold as ice, sweating like it was hot summer... As the time came closer to meet her, my heart started pounding even faster... After waiting for a while I saw her.

The moment I see her I swear to god I feel as if this is the best thing that can ever happen to me. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Her smile, her eyes so beautiful brown almond shaped big eyes as that of a new born baby (Has mentioned this line in the letter too) So gorgeous... those flicks of her when they kiss her cheeks I so very love to see that.. but I feel quite jealous too at the same time, I wish I was them... She was upset but managed to keep that smile on her face but nothing was hidden from me the moment she came and stood next to me. Everything was understood without saying a word it was the feeling that spoke.

"Hi" I said

"Hello" She replied with that fake smile.

"Kya haal hai? "

"Am Fine, Bolo" I loved to here that... I loved when she said "Bolo" don't know why but I do...

"This is for you" I gave her the letter.

"Tune likha hai?"

"Nai mere padosi ne" I said and we both giggled.

"You want me to read it now?" She questioned

I nodded in affirmation.

As she started reading the smile was visible already... and as she read, the Smile just grew bigger and bigger and at the end she was left with one beautiful Ear to Ear smile. Wow! She is so beautiful... I said to myself the latter part.

"You know what? Aaj tak kisi ne bhi mujhe aisa koi letter (Love letter) nai diya hai.. Aur shayad koi dega bhi nahi..." She looked at the letter and continued... "You made me really happy today... I can say itni khushi mujhe aaj tak kabhi nahi hui... aur hogi bhi nahi i guess... i never thought someone would write me a love letter" she said all this while she was still smiling.

I had a mini heart attack after hearing that... "You made my day sweetheart... You made my day... I... Mai puri zindagi bita sakta hun us ek pal ke sahare..." We both laughed. Words just flooded in... I had no clue what I am saying or what am I gonna say next... I kept looking at her... We both wanted to Hug each other embrace each other but couldn't as there were students around, so we chose to do the otherwise... We shared smiles.. lots of smiles... we spoke a lot without saying anything... It was first time I felt that she too has that soft corner.... She too felt somewhere deep inside for me... We ain't in relationship but we both do feel for each other... There's no name for this relationship that we share... But whatever it is.. it feels the best when she's around... When she smiles, when she winks... I love her so much... I so very do...

"You really made me very happy today" She messaged at night

"So did you" I replied

"What did i do?"

"That line meant a lot to me babu :) "

"You really made me feel that I am very special for you"

"You are sweetheart :)"

"And it showed how much do you love me"

" :) " I was smiling like a kid

"Today i feel like saying it: I Love You"

It was always me saying I love you and then she replied to it but for the first time actually second time that she said it...

"I Love You Too :) "

One should just say what they feel before its too late... You have no reason to love, as Love is unreasonable, unconditional the moment you start giving reasons that's not love my friend.. that's not love...."

They say its good to be with someone who loves you than being with someone whom you love.

Memories

You were my life,
I wanted you to be my wife,
You did not reciprocate my feeling,
And all i am left with is, memories and no healing.


I never wanted to see you cry,
That's the only thing I always try,
I will Love you till I die,
But all I am left with is, memories that make me cry.


Your smile always made me smile,
Your notorious sniggers still makes me wild,
To me you were like a child,
But all I am left with is, memories scattered in aisle.


I still remember all the promises,
Even though you broke all your promises,
I promised you my promises,
But all I am left with is, memories of your broken promises.


I remember your first touch,
How can i ever forget the feather like touch,
I love you so very much,
That i have memories of you and still no grudge.


I am choked I might cry,
Please come back before i die,
All I had was you,
But all I am left with is, memories that has you.

A Walk To Remember

It was just another beautiful evening. Grey clouds covering the sky, a few punches to them and they would have cried than and there. Winds dressed in their best. Cold winds, dark clouds, sun playing hide and seek with the water splashing and shining at the creek.

We three Me, Jigar and Harshit often went for a walk to the creek near by. It had been a long time though this time, we played cricket in our colony and decided to go for a walk after ages. On our walk we use to go gaga over Computers, Technology, Future Plans etcetera etcetera but this time the topic was changed to cars as Jigar was taking one. This guy goes in deep detailing about everything than let it be cars, BEST bus routes or Western railways. I sometimes feel he is being paid for doing that all the time and mostly i ignored all he said about Bus Service, about new bus routes and railways. This time the topic was good enough and interesting too. Harshit and Jigar both shared their experiences about driving, the mileage their cars gave or would give, the time taken to reach Goregaon and the rest is history. 


"Its a beautiful weather guys, lets go to creek and enjoy it. What say?" Jigar asked and I nodded in affirmation and so did Harshit.


"Hey i wont eat sev puri today i will definitely try omelet" He said while we passed through the Bhel Puri corner on our way to creek. Almost every time whenever Jigar, Lokesh and me went for a walk we had Pani Puri and this disgusted Jigar today as once the Water of Pani Puri was a bit salty and Jigar as usual went on cribbing about it.


"Fine! you can try whatever you want no one is stopping you" I said looking at the tea stall.


"You want to? " Harshit asked me pointing towards the Tea Stall.


"No No i have quit tea long time back" I chuckled.


"Why so?" He questioned me again.


"Ah! Doctor asked me to that asap i use to have lots of it approx 12-14 cups a day so... "I said.


"Oh!" He exclaimed.


We reached creek and it was the best part of the evening i thought, but no, there was something much much better waiting for me. We stood on the deck that was built so that the boats may load and unload during low tide. Mostly the boats (Ferry) were of Beach or Esselworld and Water Kingdom. We stood on the deck feeling every bit of winds and sweet sound of water splashing. The sun stood between two clouds appearing to be the light of faith and good will.

"I am feeling uneasy and restless yaar" I said rubbing my hands.

"You'll be fine its OK" Jigar tapped my shoulder as he said.

The boat from Esselworld came, the workers on the boat tied it to the iron railings of the deck. People started to come out and we were standing next to the boat resting our asses on the railing adjacent to it. What i saw next gave me goosebumps, my palms were wet and i was feeling even more restless now. I saw Suhani.

"Oh shit! Suhani" I said and turned around to the opposite side.

"Where? i can't see her. " Jigar started searching too.

Harshit had no clue what we were talking about he didn't knew who was Suhani so he kept quite and just looked around.

"She's there, she just got down from the boat, there in pink Kurti." I replied while i stammered on the same time.

"Ya ya i can see her now, she is with family i guess, i can see her mom too, here comes her sis, there's another sister too with a small baby with her..." He said in an excited tone.

"Will you please shut the fuck up! that's not funny at all... " I shouted.

"She has gained some weight dude..." Jigar chuckled.

"Will you please shut up! and it doesn't matter to me whether she's slim or gaining weight i always loved her for who she was... What the hell am i saying? " I was irritated at the same time was controlling hard enough to not to turn around and look at her.

I was standing next to the ramp that was made for people to make their way out of creek. She came and stood next to me now her back facing my face. I turned around again in my previous position so that she could not see me. I was in thoughts again. There was a flashback slideshow in my mind running at the lowest bit rate possible. She looked beautiful every next time i saw her. This time she looked like an angel to me, she persist in looking beautiful even today. Her pink Kurti gave more charm to her looks, i wish i could see her smile again just once.

Everything came back to me like a bazooka. Her smile, her big beautiful eyes, her graceful walk, her silent behavior, her sniggers, her chuckles, her smile with a bit of shyness, her habit of biting her lips when she had no words to speak or while she smiled. Each and everything that i was running away from came back to me again with a bang.

She left and she was out of my sight, we too decided to go back home. On our way back i saw her again and this time all my feeling were over flowing at the speed as that of Niagara Falls. My eyes were wet already my  palms still sweaty, I saw her walking again, i like her walk she had the most graceful and amazing walk that i had ever seen. One word from me and i would have started sobbing like a child for lollipop. She walked like a princess. She took a rick and just went...

Jigar called up Bhagyashri her college friend. They were close friends and studied together. I wonder how come they don't feel for each other if they studied together everyday for last 4 years i guess, or even if they did they kept it to themselves. Now i knew her and was a good friend of mine too.

"Guess what! We saw Suhani now... " Jigar shouted on the phone i couldn't hear the other side of the conversation but he handed over the phone to me.

"That's not funny i am telling you again... I don't wanna talk to anyone..." I shouted again but i took his cellphone "Look i don't wanna talk about it.. Its not funny for me..." I handed over the phone to him again.

For the next 20 minutes i did not utter a word. We had Pani Puri again that day and Jigar was still talking to her. I asked him to give me the phone and i apologized for my rude behavior.

"I am sorry yaar... I thought he called me up in the funny manner so... Sorry..." She said in a baby tone.

"NO yaar i am sorry you don't have to be, i was rude... You know right? its been 8 years now i have been waiting for this girl so... Sorry again"I apologized again.

We went back home and that night i just couldn't sleep...  It was her all over my mind again.. Her images kept on flashing in front of me. Why did i turn around? I wanted to see her the other day, so why didn't i today? What was the reason for this? Are you just pretending that you don't love her? Do you really don't love her anymore? Why can't i forget her? Do i still care about her? Will I be able to forget her ever?  Her eyes were beautiful, they might kill me someday. All the questions kept on wandering in my mind.


I said to myself while i was sleeping with my eyes open, this was really "A WALK TO REMEMBER"


                

Worlds Music Day

 Its the Worlds Music Day. Make It Count..!

My Heart says...

My Heart says I love you.

My Heart says I still miss you.

My Heart believes in you.

My Heart feels for you.

My Heart hates your absence.

My Heart loves that single glance.

My Heart remembers every single thing of yours.

My Heart remember every single word of yours.

My Heart keeps beating for you.

My Heart keeps on searching for you.


 My Heart Says... Come Back... Please... Come Back.


(@TheMantalBwoy)

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 5 - I Love You Too

As soon as Rahul disconnected the call he stood up from his seat, ran towards the rare gate and literally jumped off the bus. His head was bleeding but he just didn't care and started running... He ran as fast as he could all he knew was he had to meet Tina again, he wanted to see her once again, wanted to talk to her just once again... He kept running till he reached her apartment and to his surprise Tinz was just about to enter her wing and he shouted out loud...

"Tina... Tina I LOVE YOU..." He expressed on top of his voice with head bleeding, tears flowing with the rate of his heartbeats.

Tina turned around, saw and in no time she came running towards him... This was the first time ever Tina had expressed her feelings. She came and hugged Rahul as tight as she could and Rahul too. They both were madly in love for each other and now the whole world could see it. Neither of the two took the initiative to leave each other and kept holding each other, hugging each other till they both cried their hearts out. The world could see them but they didn't really care, all they cared about was each other and their LOVE.

After a while they both stopped crying had a sleek smile with a bit of shyness in it. Rahul than kissed her forehead and Tina again hugged him and this time even more hard and promising. She didn't want Rahul to leave and neither Rahul wanted her to leave. 

"I love you... I love you so much..." Rahul said while Tina interrupted.

"I love You Rahul... I Love You... I am glad you came or else i would have been alone for the rest of my life. I don't care about what my family would say what society would say but i care about is you, i care about my love... I Love you..." She said with tears in her eyes and kissed Rahul's forehead, cheeks, chin , eyes, lips... and all over his face she kissed again and again and both were crazy for each other.  

"I am glad i came or else i too would have been alone for the rest of my life... I Love you too my angel i just do... I don't know why but i do... i won't ever leave you again... and if i ever leave you than that would the last day of my life..." Rahul replied and Tina again stopped him and they both kissed.

"Why didn't you tell me at the temple itself that you too loved me ? I almost died when i saw you moving out of my life. I promise you i won't ever leave you..." Rahul said and paused.

"I just couldn't all i thought about was my dad but on my way home all i was thinking was you, our memories and had decided that i won't marry to anyone other than you. And see you came... " She said with smile on her face.

"Yes i had to... or else i would have died each day without you..." Rahul smiled.

"Lets go to doc your head is bleeding and than i and you.. we both will convince my dad i am sure you'll convince him too just like you convinced me..." She said and they both laughed.

They both than cleared their faces looked at each other and started smiling. They both headed towards the doctors clinic. They both walked with hand in hand for the first time. They both embraced each other. Loved, hugged, Kissed, Missed each other... 

Rahul and Tina managed to convince Tina's dad and they got married on 16th November 2015. It was raining again. Rahul had his own business set up while Tina became a journalist that she couldn't as her dad did not allow her to. Rahul allowed her to study journalism and made her dream come true. 

Say It Before Its Too Late.

Only Few people Are Gifted With Love... Accept it!

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW

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I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 4 - With or Without You...

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 4 - With or Without You...

It has been two days now, Rahul is still waiting for the reply and on the third day i.e 23rd December 2009 Tina scraps him: "We can be good friends if you want to?"

Is she serious? Just Friends? How can I suppress my feelings for her? I how i act normal, as a friend? But what if i say no? Will she be gone out of my life? I wont be able to see her anymore or talk to her?

  

Rahul kept on thinking about all this questions... his ahead was about to burst and finally he made the second  most idiotic, stupid and hopeless decision of his life. First was proposing her so early and that too in so technical way.

He replied: "Ya fine... We can be friends its totally fine with me.. but promise me you'll be with me forever..." He replied and then realized was that forever thing so necessary to say? Rahul was an emotional fool, anyone could have used him easily. He always thought from his heart and never used his organ called BRAIN. 

They kept on talking again the same way and without knowing Rahul was getting more and more attached to Tina which lead him to serious problem called TRUE LOVE. He went crazy for her, all he wanted was Tina... 

I NEED YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU... I DON'T LOVE YOU BECAUSE I NEED YOU. he always said this to Tina. He was way too expressive he never kept anything to himself he always expressed it to her and when she was not there for him he use to write it in his Diary. Whenever he felt like saying something to her he wrote it in his diary when she was not there to listen to him.

By now he was totally mad, crazy, dedicated, loyal and etc etc etc for Tina... He always thought about her dreamed about her... Liked her... lived for her... Embraced her... and everything thing just for her... He had no idea what he would do without her... and now when they both are apart he just can't live without her...!!!

Rahul finally coming out of his memories as his cell phone rings, its her Mom - Maa as he calls her Mother.

"Yes i am on my way home... "

"Yes i am fine... its just the dirt around due to traffic"

"No i am not crying... Maa bye am coming home..." He hangs up with tears in his eyes. Her mom could easily find out that he was crying and the reason too was known to her.

What happens next was something bizarre?  What must have happened? Why is it so bizarre? Anything wrong? Is Tina fine? Is Rahul ok? Will he reach home?

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I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 3 - Worst Proposal Ever

Rahul is still thinking about all his memories with Tina: The first time he saw her and now the day which should have never came so early for him...  the WORST proposal ever in this world.

After their school life came to an end everyone fell apart. Rahul was a loner at that moment his best of buddies Laqsh, Pritam and Jignesh took admission in some other colleges. He was alone. No doubt Jignesh was his neighbor but still in the college he was a loner. Soon he made some friends in college but they were just good for college and not more than that. 

Tina? Where's she? Rahul use to travel in bus most of the time and on his way to college he could see the street where Tina use to stay. So while he passed from that street his eyes always searched for her. Morning, Afternoon , evening all the time he use to scan the crowd to find her but she never appeared. This continued for two long years. 

One fine evening while returning home from college Rahul saw a girl fair, tall enough, walked gracefully, wearing a parrot green dress with good heavy work on it and a golden color handbag that suited perfectly to her dress. It was Tina. He ran at the rare gate of the bus to get down but decided to do otherwise. Bus was quite in a good speed and left her way back. He couldn't stop smiling and had the biggest ear to ear smile after two years.

He was happy but he was about to get happier. That was an era of a social networking site Orkut. It was 13th November 2009 Rahul signed in to Orkut and what he saw was unbelievable for him. He had a friend request Tina Sharma wants to Add you as a Friend.

His heart skipped a bit or two. He was on cloud nine, did she really send me the request? is she the same Tina?

Yes she was the same and he came to know about this on 16th November 2009. It was raining that day, yes it was raining in the month of November. Rahul's Internet was suffering from some technical issues so he took his brother-in-laws cell phone and logged in to Orkut. There was a scarp in his scraps from Tina asking "Hey are you Rahul Mehta from OLV please confirm i am confused." This line made it sure that she was the same Tina. OLV  was an abbreviation of their school Our Lady Of Vailankanni. He replied yes and if that was not enough she was Online too at that moment. They both had their first virtual chat and Rahul had no words to express how he felt.

Days passed they were now very good friends everyday Rahul use to wait for her Online the moment he entered his house he straight away went to his room Logged in to Orkut and kept waiting for her. At times she didn't appear online and Rahul kept waiting for 10 hours and so...

In no time they were close buddies and Rahul was just crazy for her. He had realised it soon enough that he was in Love wit her and one day something happened that shouldn't have happened, at least not so soon.

It was 20th December 2009 and it has been 2 days since Tina came online. Rahul was getting mad for her and kept waiting for the whole day. He sent her Offlines on Gmail but no reply. So he decided to e-mail her and in that e-mail he confessed that he loved her. He had to talk to her so in that frame of mind he wrote everything in that e-mail what he felt. He PROPOSED HER THROUGH AN E-MAIL. Yes, its the worst proposal ever one can say. It had been just 1 month and 5 days, Rahul had already proposed her, that too via an E-mail...

He asked his sister to talk to Tina as guys weren't allowed to call at her place. She called her and handed over the phone to Rahul. 

"Hey hi... hmmm... i have sent you an e-mail please check...." Rahul said in a hurry.

"Ya fine. Bye." And disconnected the call.

What Rahul did was correct? What would Tina say? Does she loves him too? Will this be the end? 

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I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 2 - When I first saw her...

It was during his school days when he saw Tina for the first time. She use to giggle all the time. Her pink lips, big fat black eyes, two pony tails and that beautiful smile. Rahul was a an intelligent student and was very bad in his extra curricular activities. He never took part in any of the annual programs but was creative and rather helped in decoration and stuff.

When he first saw Tina his jaw was dropped down to his feet. She was looking beautiful that day her beautiful smile was enough for a guy to fall in love with her and rest other things Eyes, hair, lips were just a jackpot bonus one can say. She was sitting on the second bench of the last row and went on laughing with her friends. She looked amazing, her pink cheeks pink lips, jet black hair and eyes were just the reason for Rahul to stare at her the whole day from the first row fourth bench. That was the day and till his finals he kept on staring Tina and did not study a bit. She was all over her mind, he didn't knew what was it, he just liked her and kept on staring her for the whole day.

He tried a lot to talk to her at least once, but couldn't gather the courage to do so... Days passed and he kept staring her. At times she too gave him a look and avoided him than... This continued till the day Rahul finally went forward to talk to Tina for the first time...

"Hey Ha... Hi...." Rahul said and stammered a bit in fear.

"Hi... you are the same guy na who keeps on staring me the whole day?" Tina questioned.

"Yaa but how do you know??? You too keep a look at me? Rahul said with his head pointing the ground.

"Hahaha No i don't, but my friends keep on updating me..." She said in a teasing tone. "Hey sorry i have to leave, my friends... are calling me. Nice to see you." She winked and left.

Rahul kept on smiling that whole day. She was so beautiful that if he saw her once her hangover was felt for a year this is what Rahul use to say.  

This was how Rahul first saw Tina.

It takes a second to Love someone or entire life feels short to Love anyone. 

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I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW - Part 1 - I Miss You...

I LOVE YOU... THAT'S ALL I KNOW

Rahul with tears in his eyes, was thinking of the day the fell apart...

It was a clam evening that day when Rahul went to meet Tina , for the last time. That was it for him, he couldn't resist anymore, couldn't take anymore pain. That was the last day he saw her.

    "This is it, I won't ever meet you again." He started saying.

"I just can't take this anymore... i cant take this pain of Love, having you in my life was just.... You are the best thing that ever happened to me. I know you too Love me but i guess you aren't brave enough to accept it. Just tell me once that you too love me, say what you feel..." He choked and stopped.

    "Your silence kills me inside... I need you, i need your love. I need you only because I Love You. I love you so much..." He broke into tears....

    "So you are leaving me huh?" She questioned with tears in her eyes.

Rahul answered with a nod.

    "Ok! so if you want it this way its fine.. if this makes you happy, go ahead leave me. I'll never again meet you this is it. Thanks for those LOVELY moments that you gave me." She said in a bit of a loud tone.

Both remained silent for a couple of minutes. Than slowly Tina went close to him, and held his hand. Both had tears in their eyes, noses red and cheeks went pink.

    "Look Rahul I like you, i like you a lot but..." and she stopped

   "But what Tina say it... say it for heaven sake... just say it..." he became even more curious.

In no time Tina left the place she went running and left the temple.

That was the last time Rahul met Tina... 

He misses her smile, her eyes, her laughs, her giggles... He misses her a lot.

Rahul still feels she would come for her... She would come back and say what she couldn't that day...

Love Is All We Need

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Farewell

Ab Jaldi kaun uthega...?
Phir bhi college ke liye late kaun hoga...?

Ab Id card pehen ne ke liye kaun kahega...?
To bina Id ke entry kaun nai dega...?

Class mai jaan bujh ke late kaun aaega..?
To class k bhar ajeeb chehre kaun banaega...?

Teacher ke jokes pe sannata kaise hoga..?
To dosto k joke pe raavan ki tarah kaun hasega...?

Assignment k daud mai raat raat bhar kaun jagega...?
To exam hall mai pehle nikal ne ki race kaun lagaega...?

Dosto se paise udhar kaun lega..?
To udhar chukane k liye dusra udhar kaun lega...?

Nukad pe khade khade ladkiyan kaun taadega...?
To kisi dost ki friend ko dekh yeh kaun kahega...?" Dekh teri item jaa rahi hai !"

"Ek cutting dena !"yeh kaun chilaega...?
To sandwich wale k saath mazze kaun udega..?
 
Teen saal yuhi beet gaye...?
Bahut saare lamhe chhod gaye...!
 
Kehne jao to saara din chhota pad jaega...!!!
Kuch bhi kaho yeh din yaad bahut aaega...!!!

Feelings

Feelings is Hard Word. 

And Most Importantly Feelings themselves are hard to Understand...!!! Its not simple for our MIND to understand them but, our heart do understand them very well.
We often become Manipulative towards our feelings, than let it be in a negative way or a positive way..!!!
Its our brain that makes it difficult for us when it comes to feelings... the moment we give our brains the authority to think about our Feelings, there comes the most tough part of our life. Our brain thinks about everything else Status, Society, People etc. but not what is actually right but, our heart always knows whats right from the very first point of time.
Its all about feelings. When a person thinks from his heart and feel from his brain that is the time when he starts doing right things.

When its right its right.

Love is everywhere and where there is love there is Feeling. Love without feeling is like Flower without Essence and Heart without beats. But its not good to be emotional all the time. Feelings work like a Salt in our life, it adds taste and without which the life is tasteless. But more of Salt also spoils our food remember that.
Expressing your feelings is also important. if you don't, either you cry inside or die with heavy heart. Expressing something isn't a bad thing but, at right place and at right time of course.

Do what you Feel, Feel what you do.

Feeling can be good or bad but whats important is Expressing. Say what you feel, that will make you feel good. Happiness lies in feeling, if you feel good you are always happy.
Man without Feelings is a man without Soul.

Tha Mantal Bwoy

I AM MAD

I am MAD... and when someone calls me that it really feels great.... Quoting Shahrukh Khan "I FEEL LIKE THE KING OF THE WORLD"

Its good to be called MAD... because you are MAD if you tend to do something different than other... So never get angry when someone calls you MAD.. feel proud of it the way i feel it... ;-)